Little letter to the future me

Dear future
By the time you read this
I will be lagged in the past
I am sending this to you
With the hope that it finds you

Right now
As i am texting you
I also have a past..
That always lives me stranded

A past that i know
A past that was once a present
That i never forgot
That gave me a focus

Dear future
This little letter
Comes just as a reminder
To take you back

So that you never forget
And that you always remember
The you before the current you
And that you visualize
The you after the current you

Our motivation lives with us
We work hand in hand
They walk right beside us
We just hardly recognize them
With our little faith and little self trust.

So dear future..
I want you to the best
To conquer yourself
And face your fear
And be better than the past

I count on you
To be better than me
To bring the best
Out of you
.....

Yours
Iza ira

Story not to tell

         

As this is mine
Its a secret to release

When i am hurt
I lough too much
To avoid tears to fall
From my eyes

When i cry
I isolate myself
To hide what is to much
For self to sustain

When i am disappointed
I blame myself
For too much
I expected

When anger catches me
I dry my pillow
For i cant pull up
The fight

When i am weak
I remember that i live by my own
And That abandonment is what hosted me at first,and i strongly  lift myself up

When no one can hear me
I talk to myself,regardless of who is observing  and try to be my own friend..and it works

            .......Iza Ira......

THE ABANDON

Abandoned to die

life hosted me

Happiness liked me

and success adopted me

Where i shaded the desperate tears

in my heart nothing was worth a living

my wishes were to die 

i learned to live

Gathered by loneliness

Saturated by thoughts

desperate shadow sheltered me

i lived abandoned but not condamned

God was still there

In the fog of life

i couldn't see clearly

waiting for no hero

thought death was the release

i awaited

then after a hundred deaths

i just remembered that i was born alone

who ever comes before or after

will go and leave me as i had no one

when it all started

Gathering the broken pieces

rising myself up

while understanding the essence of life

silence directed my open ears

and the eyes followed the guiding light

as i noticed that the night is still young

to wait for miracles,measures were taken

Toiling was the motivation

Striving was the life companion

Excelling was the goal

My mission is not yet complete

new steps are loading

IRA IZA ALY

WITH THE POWER

 

 

The empty note was created

when all i got in my head

got disappeared by the power 

of poor meaning of what

 heart was feeling

As i couldn't cry

i thought the ink would be 

the fluid tears to ease my pain

and the paper be as the shoulder

 to  cry on 

by then i was captivated by darkness,

when i realized the tiny light 

i was holding on to

had life no more and that

 the little light i had

is letting me go

as well.

there then the question was

"what the redeemer am i waiting for?"

i need a word, but not just a word

a healing word

i need the power,

the real super power

the power to change the dark into light

and the tears into laughter

 

the power to unite not to tear apart

the power to make the change

the world needs

the power to understand and explain

The poor meaning  of what heart 

may fail to express.

 

I NEED THE POWER

 

Iza Ira Aly

IBYAWE RWANDA

Intaho ya mwimanyi ntiyimutse

ikivi cyabo cyaributswe

amateka matindi arubikwa

hubururwa umucyo maze utaha 

 iwacu kwa kanyarwanda

Intego zushijwe zisimbuzwa izindi

tuzi ubwenge twarize,ntitwaciwe imbere

ngo dusobanurirwe,amateka yacu

n amahanga,yaduhaye ubumenyi tugomba

ngo twige kandi tumenye.

Ndakubwira Rwanda

rwabahanga,aho inkomyi ziturutse imahanga

zita duhubanganya,aho ubusugire 

bwacu busigasira umutekano wa bene cyo

kuko aho twahoze turaharuzi

ntawe uhaturusha

 

Abakuru bageze ibukuru

baratubwira natwe rubyiruko tuganayo

tugasobanurirwa ibitugize n'ibituranga

indangagaciro zacu tukazikomeraho

tukazikenyereraho nkumukanda

maze ibyawe Rwanda 

bigakura bida simbagurika.

Ndakuvuga imyato Rwanda

ngahanga ntahangara abanyumva

ahubwo numvikanisha ururkundo

n ishyaka nkufitiye nyaguhora 

kungoma,sugira sagamba

Ubwiza bwawe busibaganya

 ubuto bwawe maze ubuhanga bwawe

bukakurinda ishyanga ahubwo amashyo

akagusaga ugakura waguka

imisusire yawe igasasira rubanda..

Sugira Sagamba 

Rwanda  gihugu cyambyaye.

                                                        UMWALI ALYCE IZA

MY BROKEN VOW

As time passes i realize,                         

              not because,i denied,i believed.              

            you never had to convince me,

 i was already convicted

     I knew you intended good

      but i still had to let you go.

  

Heart broken for that name
Ram made a grief,a print,shinny,

                                                        sparkling,gritter but bitter

  since what i wanted 

   is never what i got

   I lost it all
   both of it gone 

                                                                destroyed by the tragic truth,
 see you broken was hell

 The pieces i couldn't gather back together

 but watching them quenched away forever


 Not responding to your request
 Reality is,i never wanted to leave

 neither to hurt.....

 I only wanted what could last

 because i could feel what you wanted
blew up before even i see it coming   

                                                      
Her you are and here am i
 both of us trying to make it 

a memory but history still hurting

nobody is moving,we are tying to each other.

                                                           
   avoiding eye contact,
heart finds its own way

and soul knows that.

                                                   
Lying to you is the sin
i could never be forgiven

your innocence couldn't keep it hidden

                                                              
i respected your choice
but i can still hear your voice

murmuring into my ears.

You still mean alot to me

                                                          
  I owe you a lot from then till now

 the story to live happy ever after
 from generation to generation
 from story to history
 not a fairytale but truth to last.

                                              
Your positive intent

to a wrong person

stole the treasure and here is


The leisure gone and
pleasure fading

all of it gone and
all i am seeing now

                                                        
  is MY BROKEN VOW.

\

                                                                            UMWALI IZA ALYCE.

      

                                                            

                                                            

FAREWELL

With tears rolling in my eyes

my mouth fighting to smile

a lot running in my mind

story i wouldn't want to tell

.......

Though this had to happen

the reality i never wanted to embrace

the truth i can't get a long with gonna be real

with you not around, i don't want to live you as

a memory,goodbye is shacking me

........

All the memories i ca't get ride  of

are still attached to me and i can't stand it no more

when the feelings still lay so common

he still had the extremity of his love for me

and i still found my happiness in yours

......

I will always keep it alive

everyday living your presence

i don't want to feel your absence

.......

Heartbroken is the current me

fluids my eyes never wanted to shades

the moment i never wanted to live

are now drowning me into horror

admitting you gone is a real terror

.......

Go get it

that voice into ears,that hunt your dreams

chases your nights,calling your name

it might be right and even real

can't hold you for long since

it's strong than me and i can't help it

.......

Spread your wings and fly

the vow we made will protect me

and they will guide you

when love brings you back

i will hold you in my arms

like you were never gone

.....

farewell will never be forever

we will give it an other meaning

a definition to last,word of hope

that good memories never die

and that

there is always life after life.

i will see you again.

                                                                        ALYCE UMWALI  IZA